Lately I feel like I’ve not been 100% with it, not 100% Mel. As you could probably tell by the lack of posts, I’d lost any sort of motivation to blog and instead just sort of meandered on in my own little murky bubble feeling like I’d lost what enthusiasm, if any, I had.
I’m not sure what exactly caused this, but I think it’s partly down to the fact that our wedding has now been and gone and there’s nothing more to plan. It’s kinda sad really as there is such a build-up before a wedding, so much to organise, and then before you know it the big day arrives and flashes by before your eyes.
We’ve been married over 11 weeks now (eeek!) and still have all of our cards of congratulations hung around our lounge. I should probably take them down soon but I don’t want to! It feels like I’ve got to sort of let something go which sounds odd but hopefully you know what I mean.
I’ve signed-up to be a brand rep for an amazing company called Imperial Candles however quickly lost my will-power so haven’t spoken too much about it or even mentioned it on this blog! More details to come about this little venture soon…
I spend a lot of my time, too much of my time, comparing myself to other bloggers and Instagrammers and putting myself down. I constantly tell myself that I’m rubbish and what I’m doing is not good enough. Heck, you look at some bloggers’ lives and everything looks so damn perfect. They have the perfect hair, clothes, make-up, home, car…. But let’s face it, that’s not reality is it? What normal person really spends every minute of every day looking catwalk ready with a super tidy show home-esque house? None. It’s not practical and it’s not real life. I’m the first person to admit that I absolutely love getting into my jammies and dressing gown when I get home, regardless of the time, and monging out in front of Netflix. I’m sure other girls do this too so why do I put myself down about it?
It’s time I realised that Instagram is not always real life. We show pictures of our best times, not ones of us on our knees scrubbing the floor or make-up free looking like some sort of junkie. ‘Cause who wants to see that, right?!
I am determined to get ‘me’ back and am going to work at pinging out blog posts like a pro and repping my big butt off.
Much love and stuff <3